have you ever felt like life has no more meaning?
that's how i feel today.
its no longer only him.
its everything else too.
frustration mounts.
sighh.
sometimes when the obvious is screaming in your face.
you just seem to ignore it.
you tell yourself have some faith and wait on.
maybe its time i stop doing that.
maybe its time i look at that screaming statement, and tell myself.
there's no hope, nothing's changed. move on. you'll only hurt more by staying.
this june holidays i'm gonna study my ass off.
and stop thinking about other things.
i might regret what i told him to do now.
but i know its for the better.
cos everytime i feel upset, i can't do work.
and i don't even understand why i must be treated like that.
i've tried to make things work in the past.
i tried to make it work again now as friends.
but well. i dunno.
i'm just trying to continue to be a friend.
like we agreed.
i'm tired of trying already.
when all your friends tell you sth,
and you just wanna ignore the imperfections and see the bright side of things, sometimes you get tired of trying to deny what they tell you.
just tired.
today i found out about sth else. very disappointing.
but that's how my life has been.
a disappointment.
just filled with disappointment after disappointment.
i always tell myself.
when a door closes on you, another opens.
i just can't find that door now.
i want to see the light soon.
its getting too dark in here.
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*veg
*exams
`favs
*piano
*clarinet
*touch rugby
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